Tuesday, 15 June 2010
So, here's the thing. I really really rarely post anything here now. I don't think I'll use this blogspot anymore. However, I don't want to delete this either. I am using TUMBLR.
check it out.
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 12:21.
Jessy , 12:21.
Sunday, 9 May 2010
It has been quite a time since the last time I posted anything. Lately, I have been tumblring. Tumblring's fun! Posting through different medias. Click on the linked phrase to check out my tumblr!
try to make one too(:
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 09:23.
Jessy , 09:23.
Saturday, 24 April 2010
Maybe I am one of the most selfish person you can ever name. I want him to just be untouched as how he was untouched to me. No. I want him to be closer to me than anyone else. But just what am I doing on my own? What am I doing to my life? Need to wake up and face justice. Give an apple to gain an apple. Lose a banana for taking others' banana. Was it just to late?
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 03:16.
Jessy , 03:16.
Monday, 22 March 2010
Today, I proposed to my girlfriend in the food court at the mall. When she said "yes", the entire food court broke out in applause, and my girlfriend and I were escorted out of the mall for "starting a riot". I never knew clapping was a crime. FML
As you see, i took it from fmylife.com
it's sweet but.. hilarious. don't you think so?
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 17:03.
Jessy , 17:03.
Thursday, 18 March 2010
i know this is short
this post may be disappointing and rather considered unimportant
i just miss it so much to call someone by the name 'sweet heart'
fufufufu(:
by the way, lately i've been watching an extremely hilarious anime titled 'baka-to-test~'
something
i'll update bout this anime soon. (it's still on going:)
this post may be disappointing and rather considered unimportant
i just miss it so much to call someone by the name 'sweet heart'
fufufufu(:
by the way, lately i've been watching an extremely hilarious anime titled 'baka-to-test~'
something
i'll update bout this anime soon. (it's still on going:)
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 22:56.
Jessy , 22:56.
Sunday, 7 March 2010
i guess the problem is perfectly in me. i just cant let you go out of my mind. just not yet. let me keep you for a little longer. 'least till i'm capable to find another 'destiny'.
. what i want is love , not lust .
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 22:06.
Jessy , 22:06.
Monday, 22 February 2010
is it readable?
i know it's kind of small.
try to click it for more vivid image(:
i have just done making it(:
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 19:32.
Jessy , 19:32.
i know it's kind of late, but reviewing back to the 20th of February, did you realize something?
IT'S 20 : 2 = 10 !
20th February 2010!
: D
IT'S 20 : 2 = 10 !
20th February 2010!
: D
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 17:41.
Jessy , 17:41.
Tuesday, 16 February 2010
I found and discovered some quotes. The first one was not found lately, but still, it is good.
enjoyyy!
Life is too short for regrets
Love like there is no tomorrow
Believe everything happens for a reason
If you get a second chance,
grab it in both hands
Nobody says life is easy
Live your life till the fullest,
and I promise it's worth-it.
(Anonymous)
I know, this is merge quotes. Bet you have heard one of them. There is 6 here(:
Next is what I conclude (helped by my friend, Stefani Widya) from what my British teacher said: "There is no future. We all live in the present."
You won't realize FUTURE exist until it turns out to be a PRESENT,
But when you realize it IS a PRESENT,
The FUTURE had turned into a PAST.
there's another one, quite alike, but conclude by me(:
Future does not exist,
they are too abstract to describe.
But I believe there will always be a tomorrow.
the last one was more to a believe actually.
hope you like themm: D
But when you realize it IS a PRESENT,
The FUTURE had turned into a PAST.
there's another one, quite alike, but conclude by me(:
Future does not exist,
they are too abstract to describe.
But I believe there will always be a tomorrow.
the last one was more to a believe actually.
hope you like themm: D
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 21:23.
Jessy , 21:23.
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
Don't Forget lyrics
Songwriters: Jonas, Joseph; Jonas, Kevin Ii; Jonas, Nicholas; Lovato, Demi;
Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all
And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us
Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget
exactly,, DEMI LOVATOOOOO(:
i love this song♥
"please don't forget about us, **"
i miss you .x(
or the 'you' in my fantasy?
i loved you. i really did. but do i love you?
" Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us . "
please, leave me space in your heart, you may wipe your feelings for me away, but never forget me.
Let me live a space inside your heart. Let me be a part of you. Let me be perennial in you. Let out memories be something precious and untouched. Is it best for us to have no communication to leave it as so?
No one to ask when i realize no answer will show up except the answers within myself. I just don't know.
Please understand that I am just to afraid to fall. Please, I'm sorry):
Songwriters: Jonas, Joseph; Jonas, Kevin Ii; Jonas, Nicholas; Lovato, Demi;
Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all
And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us
Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget
exactly,, DEMI LOVATOOOOO(:
i love this song♥
"please don't forget about us, **"
i miss you .x(
or the 'you' in my fantasy?
i loved you. i really did. but do i love you?
" Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us . "
please, leave me space in your heart, you may wipe your feelings for me away, but never forget me.
Let me live a space inside your heart. Let me be a part of you. Let me be perennial in you. Let out memories be something precious and untouched. Is it best for us to have no communication to leave it as so?
No one to ask when i realize no answer will show up except the answers within myself. I just don't know.
Please understand that I am just to afraid to fall. Please, I'm sorry):
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 20:51.
Jessy , 20:51.
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
yesterday i had a weird dream. about having a baby. my baby was so cute. however, i didn't experienced being fat for pregnant and hurt for giving birth(:
"mba" i guess. and the father, i guess is.. crazy it is. no fence.
is it because what i have done to my sims? i guess i won't do such thing again. no without marriage.
yet, somehow, that's just sweet.
i know it won't be that sweet. won't be that smooth.
but having a child is an indescribable joy for every parent, right?
guess i'm starting to understand a little(:
i have never met you, i have never hear you, i have never smell you, i have never taste you..
but i love you, my future child(:
i know, this drives me crazy;)
by the way, lately, i am very interested in a lot of things
not literally interested..
..actually.
i want to be real good at piano, guitar, violin, saxophone, ballet, gymnastic, and such
i know it will be damn hard. and to remember my age by now, it's impossible.
muri da.
and also, i am in the middle of making myself busy for a lot of things.
i intend to focus myself on some other things..
i said that i got over it. but not completely i guess.
he made a very big mark in me. two and a half years of wandering, not a short time to call.
i really do need things to kick him out of my mind.
i don't mean i will erase him completely. i wish that he can be a sweet and irreplaceable precious memory. not more, nor less.
however, he still is more.
i know because i still have this guilty and bad feeling every time i see him..
all this time i have forgot that he is too far for 'reachable'
) :
well, this isn't a time for gloom. face it, sweet heart.
this valentine is just not my year♠
.cheers.
"mba" i guess. and the father, i guess is.. crazy it is. no fence.
is it because what i have done to my sims? i guess i won't do such thing again. no without marriage.
yet, somehow, that's just sweet.
i know it won't be that sweet. won't be that smooth.
but having a child is an indescribable joy for every parent, right?
guess i'm starting to understand a little(:
i have never met you, i have never hear you, i have never smell you, i have never taste you..
but i love you, my future child(:
i know, this drives me crazy;)
by the way, lately, i am very interested in a lot of things
not literally interested..
..actually.
i want to be real good at piano, guitar, violin, saxophone, ballet, gymnastic, and such
i know it will be damn hard. and to remember my age by now, it's impossible.
muri da.
and also, i am in the middle of making myself busy for a lot of things.
i intend to focus myself on some other things..
i said that i got over it. but not completely i guess.
he made a very big mark in me. two and a half years of wandering, not a short time to call.
i really do need things to kick him out of my mind.
i don't mean i will erase him completely. i wish that he can be a sweet and irreplaceable precious memory. not more, nor less.
however, he still is more.
i know because i still have this guilty and bad feeling every time i see him..
all this time i have forgot that he is too far for 'reachable'
) :
well, this isn't a time for gloom. face it, sweet heart.
this valentine is just not my year♠
.cheers.
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 21:30.
Jessy , 21:30.
Saturday, 9 January 2010
I don't kniw how God creates his plans and demands, but I am can ensure myself and everyone that His plans are good, in many ways.
Whenever you think that you're so 'low' and lonely, He will lift you up in an instant and send you His angels(;
Whenever you think that you're so 'low' and lonely, He will lift you up in an instant and send you His angels(;
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 14:24.
Jessy , 14:24.
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
First things first.
(:
I know, it's superlate..
no fence
so, hey, have i mentioned before?
i read..something somewhere..
'don't love when you're lonely, love when you're ready'
however, to not love someone makes me lonely..
when will this lonesome go away?
)x
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
(:
I know, it's superlate..
no fence
so, hey, have i mentioned before?
i read..something somewhere..
'don't love when you're lonely, love when you're ready'
however, to not love someone makes me lonely..
when will this lonesome go away?
)x
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 23:03.
Jessy , 23:03.
Thursday, 24 December 2009
BREAKING NEWS
by the way, my break up thing.. I've get over it!
Thank goodness. Well, no fence, I do need around 3 weeks to get over it.
it's undeniable to tell that I haven't met him since when I have gotten over it, but at least, now, I felt much better.
Whenever I think of him, those memories feel sweet. Not painful.
(:
Of course, I hate him not. But I love him no more either(:
Maybe just as acquintance
Not that good to be friend. We do not communicate anymore.
Not if there are no important things or celebration.
But that's ok.
"People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is
Everything's gonna be alright"
(No One-Alicia Keys)
by the way, my break up thing.. I've get over it!
Thank goodness. Well, no fence, I do need around 3 weeks to get over it.
it's undeniable to tell that I haven't met him since when I have gotten over it, but at least, now, I felt much better.
Whenever I think of him, those memories feel sweet. Not painful.
(:
Of course, I hate him not. But I love him no more either(:
Maybe just as acquintance
Not that good to be friend. We do not communicate anymore.
Not if there are no important things or celebration.
But that's ok.
"People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is
Everything's gonna be alright"
(No One-Alicia Keys)
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 22:20.
Jessy , 22:20.
Wednesday, 23 December 2009
We Do Need Each Others
When there's light, we can find dark
If there are societies who love a particular thing, there must be societies full of hatred towards that thing
How would we define something is wrong when there is nothing right?
What is good and what is bad?
I may say that being happy is good, but what is happy?
If a single thing can be seen by hundreds of perspectives, how many perspectives can be seen from two?
Thus, why would one judge numbers of things indefinitely?
Why would it be challenging for one to change their point of view?
Why would one say they're in a deep sorrow when they happen to close their eyes to others?
Why would one compare so much?
There are unexplainable things about why the universe must be caged in an unbreakable law of attraction.
You might say that it's better for something to not-exist. However, if they do not exist, another thing will loose their identity.
If you're the only one on earth, then who are you? No one would notice you because there is no other one.
Which is more important? The leader or the followers?
You may say it's the leader as the leader gives orders. Yet, who will the leader lead when he has no followers?
Then, you might change you're mind that followers are more important.
After all, if there are no leader, who are they following? Themselves? Therefore, why are they called as followers?
When there's no light, there will be no dark;
If there is no one who adores a particular thing, no one will despise it;
A thing is never right when there is no wrong;
And the nonexistance of bad means the good does not exist.
When there's light, we can find dark
If there are societies who love a particular thing, there must be societies full of hatred towards that thing
How would we define something is wrong when there is nothing right?
What is good and what is bad?
I may say that being happy is good, but what is happy?
If a single thing can be seen by hundreds of perspectives, how many perspectives can be seen from two?
Thus, why would one judge numbers of things indefinitely?
Why would it be challenging for one to change their point of view?
Why would one say they're in a deep sorrow when they happen to close their eyes to others?
Why would one compare so much?
There are unexplainable things about why the universe must be caged in an unbreakable law of attraction.
You might say that it's better for something to not-exist. However, if they do not exist, another thing will loose their identity.
If you're the only one on earth, then who are you? No one would notice you because there is no other one.
Which is more important? The leader or the followers?
You may say it's the leader as the leader gives orders. Yet, who will the leader lead when he has no followers?
Then, you might change you're mind that followers are more important.
After all, if there are no leader, who are they following? Themselves? Therefore, why are they called as followers?
When there's no light, there will be no dark;
If there is no one who adores a particular thing, no one will despise it;
A thing is never right when there is no wrong;
And the nonexistance of bad means the good does not exist.
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 21:44.
Jessy , 21:44.
Monday, 7 December 2009
Ever heard of this song?
If It Kills Me by Jason Mraz (:
This song is cute(:
just cute<3
minus the part that I've waited so long but i still can't tell
that part is more to the days before 30th of July 2008(:
enjoyy
Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now
And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your (wo)man
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now
And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your (wo)man
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me
And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 15:40.
Jessy , 15:40.
Tuesday, 1 December 2009
..maybe..
..deep within myself, I wanted you to decline my decision no matter what I say
and we'll start from the beginning
then you'll love me even moree
or you'll realize how much you need me that you ask me back):
how stupid. pathetic.
..deep within myself, I wanted you to decline my decision no matter what I say
and we'll start from the beginning
then you'll love me even moree
or you'll realize how much you need me that you ask me back):
how stupid. pathetic.
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 22:25.
Jessy , 22:25.
-----------------
Deep Mellow
-----------------
I finally broke up. I love him. I still do. Yet, I don't think that my presence means a lot for him. I don't think he even miss me or need me anymore after we broke up. Though all this time we were together, I think I was the only one who needed him. I don't think that he really needed me or even missed me. Did he love me? Loved me until the 30th of November, the day we broke up? Undeniably, I was the one who suggest the 'become friends' thingy. I don't want to say I broke him up, because what happened between he and I was an agreement):
I think that what he was feeling bad about was the time. The time we've been through together..
The fact that we've gone through 15 months.
Ironically, he didn't remember how many months it was. Or was he just too lazy to count. However, breaking up with him was..
It makes me kind of loosing part of myself.
I love you, Jo..
Even until now. Until this second I'm writing this.
I love you):
I just want to stop being wishy washy.. first of all when it comes to my own decisions):
What makes me feel bad most is the fact, as I have mentioned, he didn't care.
He didn't even say he love me when I ask him to just be friend. Am I that meaningless to him?
What I want now is to forget him?
Yet, what I fear most is myself.
Do I love him or am I just possessive?
By the way, this evening I read a quote by anonymous
"Love when you ready, not love when you're lonely."
Moreover, I'm quite afraid of going to school now. I'm afraid that people will sooner or later know about us. I don't want this little secret to spread):
Therefore, I'm afraid to tell others. I'm afraid to~
) :
Did I just over-reacted]:
...
..the requirements for using all this past tenses for my past relationship just sucks.
Deep Mellow
-----------------
I finally broke up. I love him. I still do. Yet, I don't think that my presence means a lot for him. I don't think he even miss me or need me anymore after we broke up. Though all this time we were together, I think I was the only one who needed him. I don't think that he really needed me or even missed me. Did he love me? Loved me until the 30th of November, the day we broke up? Undeniably, I was the one who suggest the 'become friends' thingy. I don't want to say I broke him up, because what happened between he and I was an agreement):
I think that what he was feeling bad about was the time. The time we've been through together..
The fact that we've gone through 15 months.
Ironically, he didn't remember how many months it was. Or was he just too lazy to count. However, breaking up with him was..
It makes me kind of loosing part of myself.
I love you, Jo..
Even until now. Until this second I'm writing this.
I love you):
I just want to stop being wishy washy.. first of all when it comes to my own decisions):
What makes me feel bad most is the fact, as I have mentioned, he didn't care.
He didn't even say he love me when I ask him to just be friend. Am I that meaningless to him?
What I want now is to forget him?
Yet, what I fear most is myself.
Do I love him or am I just possessive?
By the way, this evening I read a quote by anonymous
"Love when you ready, not love when you're lonely."
Moreover, I'm quite afraid of going to school now. I'm afraid that people will sooner or later know about us. I don't want this little secret to spread):
Therefore, I'm afraid to tell others. I'm afraid to~
) :
Did I just over-reacted]:
...
..the requirements for using all this past tenses for my past relationship just sucks.
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 20:33.
Jessy , 20:33.
Saturday, 28 November 2009
changing my add again(:
just want it to be even closed.
'sugar rush' is what my teacher - more like friend - tell me I am in when I started going wild after eating chocolates in stuff(; however, sugarrush.blogspot.com is not available. and I don't think that it's cute to use a dash (-) between the two words. therefore, I added 'ed'. yet, it was not available either. finally, I think it'll be kind of cute to add the word 'party' as in social gatherings at the back of it. however, the word 'party' itself is just to plain. thus, as you can see, it's sugarrushbash.blogspot.com
it means: having a sugar rush (adrenaline pumped because of sugar) party(:
just want it to be even closed.
'sugar rush' is what my teacher - more like friend - tell me I am in when I started going wild after eating chocolates in stuff(; however, sugarrush.blogspot.com is not available. and I don't think that it's cute to use a dash (-) between the two words. therefore, I added 'ed'. yet, it was not available either. finally, I think it'll be kind of cute to add the word 'party' as in social gatherings at the back of it. however, the word 'party' itself is just to plain. thus, as you can see, it's sugarrushbash.blogspot.com
it means: having a sugar rush (adrenaline pumped because of sugar) party(:
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 22:13.
Jessy , 22:13.
Thursday, 26 November 2009
Hey, actually I want to inform(?) this since Monday(?) or Tuesday. Maybe, just maybe. I will make this blog as one of the 'medium' for me to publish my essays, both I made during my English classes and my spare time(:
Sharing stories and stuff. I think that will be quite.. cool?
At least for me :D
lol
Sharing stories and stuff. I think that will be quite.. cool?
At least for me :D
lol
I ♥ YOU,
Jessy , 19:10.
Jessy , 19:10.
